Juliet Burke!!! From Lost, in case you wondered.
I fucking mourned. That summer after The Incident was one of the most productive and engaging fannishly for me. I still have friends from that time. This death bonded us together forever. I loved Juliet so much, she was easily my favourite character on the show and while I expected the s5 finale to be gut wrenching watch her get pulled down and away from Sawyer and Kate, watching her detonate the warhead was hurt me so much.
Juliet went out a hero, she also created the very problem that would one day bring her to the Island, in true Lost fashion. This is secretly my favourite thing about her death. But the lead up to her final moments (though she comes back in season 6 in the Sideways verse) were so bittersweet, because they, she and Sawyer, had an out, they almost left. The almost made it off the Island, but they went to help others, to save the other, and a moment of uncertainty further propelled Juliet’s actions. She didn’t actually sacrifice herself, but she saw the moment where it was going to be her life, or she’d pulled Sawyer down with her and she chose to save him. Then after she chose to try to save everyone. An action that had unplanned consequences, one that would bring her to the Island later, but would also cause for Desmond’s future time in the Hatch, that would cause the flight to come on the Island in a moment where Desmond misses pushing the button. Juliet death drove, in retrospect, a lot of the plot forward, before she even came on the Island. (Time travel man!)
But also, it was a death that just hurt, because she was so good. She was complicated and sometimes morally grey, but she was so good. I loved her a lot, and her character arc on the show was one of my favourites so to watch her go, to watch her and Sawyer say goodbye to each other was so painful.
It broke my heart for a good long time. JOIN ME IN SOME BRAND NEW TEARS.